Daphne's Journal

There are times when I think about of giving up, of going back home and just leave this awful place, this company and this job that I've come to bitterly hate every moment I am part of it. Long working hours, no holidays, no day offs, delayed salary, unsympathetic employers and most of all, a caregiving job as what most of clients think of us that we have to endure everyday as home care nurses. To those who doesn't even have the slightest idea, being a nurse working in UAE sounds so grand, the high salary is what the only thing they can think of and being in a foreign country (abroad) is a great accomplishment. Maybe for those who ended up in a hospital or in a better post such as clinics and medical centers. But for us in home care, it's not as grand as what is sounds like, behind that label is a struggle, a day-to-day grind to survive. Not all working conditions are same, some company have better management and other nurses are in good hands, but when you go and ask; it...

Once in your life, you will meet someone that would leave a mark on your memory, and would teach you valuable life lessons you will never ever forget. Though his ideas seem to be flawed, for me it isn't. It's just the way he thinks, that I adapted somehow upon hours of talking to him, listening to his premises, expounding his ideas and expressing his thoughts about particular subject mostly about religion and life inconsistencies.  Smoke till death When I asked him why he keeps on smoking though he knows the ill effects of it somewhere later in life, I remember him telling me this..  "At some point, we are all going to die. Our bodies, whether we like it or not, will wither and die. Even if it's not fair, some will live longer than the others, some will die all of a sudden. We all don't know how, but for me, when I die, I can say I chose my death. It's better to have a reason for dying than dying all of a sudden."  Pampalubag-loob When something bad and un...

When you die, how would you like to be remembered?  Accept it or not, we are all going to leave this world. We don't know exactly when, if we are to reach an old age or die all of a sudden. Unexpected and crime-related deaths are everywhere, with new set of news of murders, suicides like its just a natural occurrence in society now. Though I wish to reach my golden years, I have no knowledge of what's to come and everything in life is uncertain. I am not wishing for an early death but in our time now, anything is possible. And so it made me think and realize, if I were to die, how would people remember me?  First of all, when I die, I want my loved ones to remember how I care for them. How I love them more than anything in this world and that they should always remember that no matter what. That they should always bear in mind, that I have lived my life to the fullest, I have fulfilled my dreams, I have experienced the beauty of this world, I've got no regr...