Daphne's Journal

When you look at the mirror, what do you see? Your face seemed to reflect it all; your struggles, fears, accomplishments, feelings, desires and ambitions. The person you are today, the end result of those years behind you, the time passed since you were born. And looking at yourself now, what have you become? Are you looking at the person you were meant to be, the person you envisioned yourself to be, or the person you never thought you would be? What has life given you? Where has it taken you, and where is it leading you?  If you are 20something and trying to get hold of your life but seems like everything is falling, you must be able to relate with my sentiments.  The Beginning of Crisis   It was last year when I got confused with what I wanted to do with my life (I still am) and felt like I needed to do something but couldn't seem to find direction. My night and days were consumed by planning on what should I do with my life. I just became single ag...

People come and go as what they always do. That's life, one of the awful parts of it. Though how much we want them to stay, they're not ours to keep and that they have to go their own way apart from ours. And for me, it's the saddest part of meeting people. Especially when we become so familiar of their presence in our lives, when we become so attached to them, when we have poured out all our hearts to them, that eventually they've already become part of us, occupying the big portion of our hearts . We've encountered them for a while but when they go, their presence leave a big empty hole in us that takes time to heal, and leave a scar forever.. It was   in the beginning of September, last year (2016) when I met a man. It's not everyday that I come across with a scenario like that. I was stressing with my job, and the only thing that mattered to me was earning and providing for my family, and saving for my future travel plans. He was introduced to me and despite...

I am a person who is fascinated in arts, any form it- paintings, sculptures and the likes, and being a melinneal myself, also photographs. I appreciate creativity and admire artist of their handiwork and masterpieces. For me, being able to create art in any form is an excellent way of self-expression; a person's soul and whole-being manifestation. Turning creativity into passion and pouring one's heart to something that has depth and meaning.  What makes real Artists   They said everyone of us is an artist because we have unique ways of expression. Everyone has an artistic side, as children we were encouraged to draw, paint and mold. But as years go by throughout development, our focus changes as we discover things we are more inclined to, music, dancing, fashion, sports and other things. Come being a grown up and into adulthood, with all the demands of everyday living, remain only few individuals who bring it out of themselves. Having the courage to pursue and enha...

When we experienced a great deal of embarrassment when we were young, I guess the feeling stays when we grow old. Being a third child of four, I was considered as the most unattractive among my siblings. I have the darkest complexion, has the most skin flaws and imperfection, the odd and sensitive one who can't express herself and that makes her feel being left out. My struggle with low self-esteem and sense of belongingness started at a very young age, when I had to compete for my siblings to get my parents attention and to get people's approvals of me as a person. Many people may see me as a bold, daring and a  confident care-free person. But little did they know, what they see is just the opposite of what I really am. I mean, how can we judge if what we only see is not even half of what a person is outside? For years, I've been not confident enough. I have a low self-esteem rooted in my childhood days that won't ever be changed. Some of us may have struggled about it...

There are times that even if everything in life seems doing great, you will still feel like your alone. That no one is there for you, that no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that you're okay, that you don't need anybody else cause you got yourself covered, you will still feel it deep inside, the pain and longing for someone and something you can't experience the same and have again. As Tom Wolfe puts it,  "the whole conviction of my life now rests upon the belief that loneliness, far from being a rare and curious phenomenon, peculiar to myself and to a few other solitary men, is the central and inevitable fact of human existence."  I recently got a two days off and decided to go to the mall to de-stress. My duty was just keep on getting toxic more and more and I needed to go out to declutter my mind. I chose to see a recently released movie, Everything everything, which is based from a novel from the same producer of "Me Before You". Maybe t...

As a person who likes to contemplate a lot, Life is one of those things I always think about. It's crazy I know, but sometimes I'd just sit in a corner late at night after a long day and would wonder why am I here and still breathing. I cant help but question even my mere existence, and it always lead me to a  search for life's purpose and meaning. Sometimes I would search at google, or randomly ask friends, even strangers what is life for them, what is its meaning and how do they deal with it; o r are they already at that point in life where  they want to be, or what they envisioned their life to be as a means of evaluation and to generate valuable life lessons they can share with me.  Every time I do that, I'd just be surprised of how different life meaning is to everyone.  Each person has his own definition, even famous authors of books I read, leaders, philosophers, artists, commoners, and people from different walks of life. So what is life? Let me share ...

My mind was in a deranged mode when I happened to chat with this stranger whom I came across in social media. I got a bit thrilled knowing him. Seeing his friend request where we don't even have a mutual friend. I really have no idea why someone like him would asked me to be his facebook friend, it's quite an honor frankly but I wasn't able to ask him why. I guess it's just a random act we used to do daily in the FB world. I accepted his request and scroll more upon his profile, and whoa, this time I got so speechless, all I was manage to say was "Wow" with my mouth hanging wide open, just "wow". Seeing his posts, specially his masterpiece, photos, blogs, it's all incredible. Just reading every caption of his photos, I already knew he has something to say. Given the kind of his profession as well, he is not just an ordinary person you get to stumble upon everyday. If you also wish to know him, visit his blog   The Backpacking Pilot , or like his ...

There are times when I think about of giving up, of going back home and just leave this awful place, this company and this job that I've come to bitterly hate every moment I am part of it. Long working hours, no holidays, no day offs, delayed salary, unsympathetic employers and most of all, a caregiving job as what most of clients think of us that we have to endure everyday as home care nurses. To those who doesn't even have the slightest idea, being a nurse working in UAE sounds so grand, the high salary is what the only thing they can think of and being in a foreign country (abroad) is a great accomplishment. Maybe for those who ended up in a hospital or in a better post such as clinics and medical centers. But for us in home care, it's not as grand as what is sounds like, behind that label is a struggle, a day-to-day grind to survive. Not all working conditions are same, some company have better management and other nurses are in good hands, but when you go and ask; it...